If I Didn't Have You

Lately I have been struggling so much. I can't pin point why but I have been feeling unbearably sad. I mean I could tell you why I think I feel this way...but I'm not quite sure you'd understand. Life just isn't right. Maybe I chose the wrong path. Maybe I thought wrong about what God was calling me to do. On top of it all I can't seem to figure out why the one person I want to be with could make me as happy as he does and yet want someone else. There are just so many things going through my head that some days it makes me feel sick, and so sad that I don't care to be around people.

But there is one person in my life that no matter what I am facing I can't stand to be away from for to long. He hasn't always been a part of my life, but I don't know how I ever made it through life without him. I am so lucky to have had him in my life for 9 years now! He has been there for some of the hardest years of my life, and I couldn't have asked for anyone better! He is my hero, my greatest role model, my father figure, and most importantly my best friend! We have been through a lot together. We have had our ups and downs. He's put up with me and loved me through some of the most difficult situations. He has shown me what caring for someone is all about. Loving someone isn't always easy, but its your duty to do what's best for the other person -- that is something he has shown me. He has taught me what it takes to be many things, especially how to be a great pastor. He's has been there for me during many of my heartaches and the times when I didn't know if I could make it through. He has shown by example how to trust God. I've been alongside him for sometime now and he has taught me more than anyone else ever has in my life. He's so smart and good at what he does. There are a lot times I do things just like him without even thinking about it, some good and some are bad habits I have picked up...but I've never wanted to be more like anyone else in my entire life...except for like Christ. But that's just it. What he does follows in suit of how God calls us to live our lives here on earth. I could go on and on about him for a long time. He has a big place in my heart and I never want to lose him. I am so thankful God place him into my life! I know God knew at the time, but there was no way the first time we meet, that either one of us would have ever thought we would have the relationship we do today. God knew what he was doing. I couldn't live life without him and God knew that. I love him so much. I'd never make it through, if I didn't have him.

I couldn't live without you 

I wouldn’t want to

If you didn’t love me so much

I’d never make it through

‘Cuz this life would kill me

This life would kill me if I didn't have you.

I’m safe in your arms, you rescue me.

When I’m weak, you’re strong

If you were gone I don’t know where I’d be

{IF I DIDN'T HAVE YOU - THOMPSON SQUARE}